I work outside of the home full time and for the longest time, it was all about I need to get the F*** out of here. I knew there were amazing things for me out there in this world but I felt like I was being held back.
I applied for a few jobs and did not get them. I applied and applied nothing, or when I did go through the process it was always a no. That brought me down quite a bit because I thought to myself "yes I'm out of here" but then get the crushing news and still no changes.
I was told by someone recently maybe I should not be thinking about leaving and I should start being grateful for what I have. When I first heard that I was like "ummmmm okay" and how I should change my vision and to bring out more positive energy. I had to let that sink in for a bit and was I upset, oh yeah. How could something think I'm negative, I am not a negative person.
For a few days I was down, and when I mean really down. I was crying to my husband thinking, I am not worth anything else. Yeah it was a bad couple of days. I woke up one morning and I was like, you know what?!?! Forget this, I am worthy of whatever job I find, and I just need to keep going.
I could of let my negativity of that conversation ruin everything for long time, but I said to myself "NO, I am not going to let this negative view of me crush me."
I started to do things I enjoyed doing again like listening to audio books. I really enjoy to listen to Tony Robbins and Stephen Covey. I think the way they speak and the way they explain things, I get it.
To me changing that mind set took me years. I mean YEARS to finally just let things be. Does that mean I will stay stagnant, oh goodness no, this give me more of a drive to be better and find what I should be doing.
Changing my mindset has give me a clearer mind, and a new drive when I wake up in the morning. In the past I felt like a drone and just went through the motions. Now I feel like when I wake up there is a purpose, I make sure I write down what I am grateful and that really helps me get through the day. Knowing what I am grateful for really puts things in perspective. Waking in a purpose and drive really changes your mood and attitude.
I used to get crazy anxiety attacks about anything and everything. This is the first time since 2013 after all the things I went through I did not have an anxiety attack, which is crazy.
Why am I sharing all this? I truly do believe the mind is the most powerful thing. I used to think yeah I am positive but nothing good ever happens for me so what's the point? Man, wasted years on thinking like that. I really truly believe if the mindset has changed and you wake up with purpose and drive, you will see life in such a different way. I know that for me this is a wake up call to make those decisions when the time comes. It's coming, I know it is and I can't wait to run things.
I could of have let the negativity crush me but I finally made the decision to not let it and I am so hopeful for what is going to come. I am bursting with excitement.
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